Reluctance. That was biggest feeling that I had to overcome throughout this project. It all started when we first began talking about the performance and the project as a whole. I was reluctant to do the performance with eight classmates who I did not know very well. I was reluctant to try to delve into a past and history that my family and I knew very little about. I was reluctant to put my whole self into this project because of other things I had going on in my classes and life outside of school. This project seemed too difficult and too much work for me to really get my entire self into what this project was asking for.
One of the main reasons for all of these feelings was because I was afraid. The biggest fear for me was not having stories or ancestors that could match up to the rest of my classmates or what Daniel and Janna were looking for. I decided to pray and to really think about what I wanted to do with this project in order to get the most out of it and to give my all for my fellow classmates. I was sadly unable to discover much of anything on my ancestors except names, dates, and places. I then talked to my parents about my Grandpa and was able to find a story that not only meant a lot to my family, but also was very special to me.
The story I was able to tell and research more about was my dad’s father, Robert Joseph Kaelin Sr., who was the batboy for the St. Louis Cardinals in the late 1930s.
By putting my heart into this project, I was able to get so much more out of it then I ever expected. With the guidance of Daniel and Janna, I was able to see the importance of family stories and traditions. Each of the stories that we as a class presented on were unique and special in its their own ways. I was and am so grateful to have been a part of a group of students that put so much time, uniqueness, and dedication to the entire process. I believe that we all have a much better and stronger understanding of the power and influence these kinds of stories have on not only us but also the people who take the time to listen.